kazuki kurusu; open post

[henhussy]

kazuki kurusu

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[henhussy]

damn, and here I thought I was peeling back another layer of the asshole onion.

[babydaddy]

i don't know what i'm into

never really thought about it

who i married was never going to be my choice

[henhussy]

well, it is your choice now

you should think about it a little

maybe then you'll get off my back about dating

[babydaddy]

i guess i get along with men better than women

and i don't want to marry anyone

my family is perfect the way it is

[henhussy]

it is pretty perfect

I just miss seeeex

and it's not like you're going to do that for me

[babydaddy]

how would you know?

you've never asked

[henhussy]

I never thought about it

anyway, you're just going to say no if I do ask

[babydaddy]

maybe i won't

but i'm not your type anyway

[henhussy]

what do you know about my type?

and yes you totally will! just to spite me!

[babydaddy]

you call me weird and creepy all the time

don't tell me you're into that

[henhussy]

well, maybe if you kept your mouth shut...

[babydaddy]

so its just my personality that's the problem

not my looks?

[henhussy]

I was kidding, Rei

[babydaddy]

i know i'm not much to look at

and i'm not so good socially

or emotionally

and everything i am good at is illegal or pointless

its best i stay single

[henhussy]

hey now, a lot of that is just because of your shitty dad

anyway, you're not single.

remember, if I'm not, then you're not either. goes both ways

[babydaddy]

but you want to find someone else

because of sex

so maybe if i can do that... you won't have to go to anyone else

and our family can stay the same

[henhussy]

yeah well, I'm not having sex with you if that's the only reason you're doing it

[babydaddy]

does it really matter why?

[henhussy]

yes! of course it does!

[babydaddy]

geez

this sex stuff is complicated

[henhussy]

look, it's really not that complicated

sex isn't just about bodies, it's about minds too. sure, you can do it without liking the person, but it's not very satisfying that way and gets boring really fast.

what I want is

[And this text takes a while to send, because he pauses there for a long time, trying to figure out how to word what he wants. Has to stop and think about what he actually wants.

I want Yuzuko back.

But that's not possible. And Rei isn't Yuzuko. He wouldn't want him to be.

After a while, he tries to finish the sentence.]

someone to hold me when I'm upset, you know? and share a bed with. someone I can talk to about anything. someone who'll have sex with me because they want to.

[babydaddy]

my mind isn't good for anything but killing

someone like me... could never do all that

i'm sorry

forget i asked

[henhussy]

of course your mind is good for other things! look how far you came with Miri. you know, I'm really proud of you for that.

and I dunno. do you want to do all that?

[Great, now his head feels like it's spinning a little and he's a bit...dizzy? Ugh.]

[babydaddy]

Miri is different

and all that sounds kinda nice... i just think i might be too busted

and i don't want to screw up what i have and lose it

[henhussy]

what makes her different? maybe that'll help you figure it out.

anyway, yeah, all that sounds really nice to me too. I've thought about doing it with you before, since we're partners and all, I just figured you wouldn't want to.

and well, I'm not going anywhere